I had a major binge purge session today. i started out at a church function when i was convinced to eat meat (normally i'm vegetarian). so i had 4 hot dog and some chips. then panic set in. i was already anxious because this was the first time i was at this church function so it was all new to me. my friends tried to help me but its hard to help someone when you don't understand whats going on. so i left early. i felt like a fuck up so i went to McDonald and got more meat products to binge and purge on. came home within 30 mins so i was able to get most of it up. that wasn't the only B/P session today i've had 2 more. 
i knew this was coming after sever restriction and weight loss. but hopefully i got it out of my system. i got a plan now.

breakfast: coffee, 1 serving of plain oatmeal
Lunch: Skip
Dinner: Ensure

this plan will work for me because i have to have a certain amount of calories with my meds (morning and dinner) for it to work.

For now ive updated some new inspo pictures and a couple of gifs. this will be a slow process because of work but i'm doing the best i can.
 next to be updated is the Featured page

I've lost 6 pounds in one week would have been 8 but my friend encouraged me to eat yesterday so i went into binge mode on pizza so i gain back 2 pounds. that is  okay ill lose it this week. been restricting to less than 900 a day for nearly a week. now i'm over 900 calories and i want a pickle but i know i cant do that. 
and as i promised i'm getting new thinspo. just got to get it organized on the computer and then uploaded so probably in a week or two. 

stay skinny 
​JT

I’m never truly gone from this site I just go in and out of “recovery “ where I don’t want to be active. But currently I want to be active. So I’ll be adding some new things soon.