1/31/2019 2 Comments Getting Thin is the Best Revenge!My ED brain like to say "ill stop eating.. that will show them". Which makes me feel better and the jealousy when i lose weight is the best form of revenge. kinda like they don't have control over me. I'M IN CONTROL. Sometimes i don't know what comes over me but when people are concerned about me not eating i'm happy. almost like they actually care now. at work there is always someone doing a diet or who hasn't eaten yet that day. then there's me starving and making sure that they eat. no one is going to take my title as the starving weight loss queen. i know i sound full of myself and that its probably my sick brain say these thing.
Just imagine walking in to school or work after a big break and BAM! all the heads turn because you lost so much weight. so much that they think you sick or you know some short of secret. When that happen politely throw them off your tack and as "oh its just exercise and eating better". Just imagine!
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Jessana
2/9/2019 12:35:13 pm
I totally get it. I'm always the one who can say no to food. The other day, we had a party and I was allowing myself to eat some veggies from the tray. Another girl just sat across the room and didn't eat anything. It made me furious. Like, that's my thing! What, does she think she's going to be skinnier than me now? She's now telling people she's fasting so maybe she'll end up being my first Ana buddy, but I won't let her be the thinner one.
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savannah davis
2/10/2019 07:41:39 pm
omgee i always cant turn down food, and wear baggy stuff so people think im legit like obese or sumn and its awfulllll
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